link 80 was NEAT. california boys are so attractive. seriously. i took a ton of pics of them. ryan is hot. like, in a unique way. i like his face! haah. emily was all goo goo ga ga baby over aaron. theyve kissed...awww. m(XX) and L(XY) were there too. neat. m(XX) is so sweet. i wish i could hang out with her more. a guy from link 80 asked us if we were related. hm. anyways....mikey from cnr was there tonite (duh, his band played) and i think he has such a sexy frikkin voice..mmmmm. and he hugged me...i shouldnt of pulled away so fast..cause i never get hugs. i hate thinking nice things about boys. it makes me vulnerable *shudder* i cant stand the thought of being vulnerable. im a 16-year-old girl who needs that power play in her life...
perfect.
im thinking of him tonite, cause the boys of link80 know him....i miss him, and i dont want to. i hate it. i want to forget him, but the feelings are just like sap in my veins, just meandering down so fucking slow....and theyll always be there. why do i fucking like him so much? i need this power in my life! and i have no fucking power over him in my guts and veins and gross intestines n shit. ugh. i miss him. i havent talked to him since january. i think he could care less about me.
what would you want with a lame little girl who thinks too much for her own good?
and those thoughts being about completely irrellevent things in live.
oh fuck me....
i need to take a shower.
cigarette butts.
no sleep.
oh yeah, my dad was here at 115pm, not noon. ha.
yeah..dammit. i miss him.
i dont want to go to school tomarrow.
not one bit.
school is for fags, says i.