everything is just so lame.
i cant stand anything.
i just write in here when im just so fucking pissed and need to occupy my hands and brain with something else....

it seems it grows more and more still every day.
my social life fucking sucks, partially cause of my family.
i dont want my friends to stay the nite here....i dont want them to see my family for that long. i dont want my family to yell at them.
if i had my license by now, i wouldnt feel so self-neglecting.
i havent had a good time in too long of a time. my brains always occupied by something bad.
stupid people....

ive been contemplating on going to college, for reals, just cause you cant go anywhere in life without those oh-so-important sheets of paper they give you. i think i might go to an out of state, just to get away. new york is very tempting. so is california....
dammit!
i need to get the fuck outta here, just cause...
i need a vacation.
and i need to close ties with a lot of people.
i just wish i could and i hate having to wait so long.

im glad me and e(XX) are on okay terms again...
i hate it when that shit happens.

i hate it when people are stupid.
oh crap, i hate everything.
look at me be a pussy teenager.