this is so fucking gay. i really hate living here. i dont see why i have to go through living with people who have NO LIVES WHATSOEVER, so they butt their noses into mine. this has gone too far..
i hate having to worry about them...cause i know, when i move out, things are just gonna go to shit. it may sound horrible, but i dont want them in my life, they are a negative influence, and sometimes i just wanna die cause of them...
its horrible how alone i feel.
although i am extremely social.
i cant go over an hour without thinking about moving out.
and wanting to be alone.
cause they inhabit my thoughts, like a parasite, knawing away at the core of me...its just instinct telling me to leave, and rip away.
it seems that.....i cant have a 'fine' relationship with anyone, cause they either talk smack or use me.
its exhausting.
.....i just want to close my eyes and sleep til im old enough to move out, and i can turn around and never return again. ever.
ive just got no one to talk to. at all. i always end up alone. i can make it okay for a bit....with sedative people...but once i come down, im below sea level, with a bit of a social hangover.
either make time go quickly.
or kill me.