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Wednesday, 31. July 2002
what its like to be hated.
milky
00:23h
i am convinced everyone hates me. everyone seems mad at me, and the days seem hazy in my eyes. it still feels like sunday, but its tuesday. the 30th. i didnt want the clock to tick this fast without me seeing it do so. ive been posting on a lot of message boards the last couple days, and it seems no one from any of them likes me. i changed my user name on the ASS board. maybe ill go back. who knows. i just feel incredibly alone again. that means ill be writing in here a lot more just to take up some time and try to get myself to feel better. im just stuck here..... like i said, hell be leaving soon. ive been thinking a lot about people lately. and how i want to talk to them more. and be a bit more open and friendly. me and tony went out last nite. and we talked. and i talked to some strangers. they were nice. i should do that more often. maybe id see them again, and theyd no longer be strangers. im just sick of being here. the valley is like a non stop legargicismfest. i feel so negative here. whereas, when i was on the east coast, i awoke fresh and knowing there was lots to do that day. with big buildings to see, and goregous scenery to soak up. i always talk about how i hate az in here. and i talk about my family a lot too. my writings in here are just depressing. i dont write much thats positive. i save all that for livejournal, just cause more people know that side of me and rather see it than this one. ... Link |
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