they picked me up at like, 6. FUCK!
better late than never, eh brah?
andy bought an old skool skateboard for like fifty kajillion dollars, and it took like, 2 hrs. i was kinda all question-marky the whole time, (on my face) cause he was basically doing it all for fashion. "being 80s" and he mentioned wearing his checkered vans while riding it...man...i dunno. it just kinda bothered me a bit.
yes-i know im a fashion junkie, but i dunno, spending a ton of money on something thatll probably last a week and that youre not quite sure about is a bit shallow...
but hey...weve all done it before.

im not going to post a picture as mentioned before. i dont look all that great today. im feeling sick.

tomarrow is gherkin. im kinda nervous. ill be meeting a fellow thats moving here from san diego for the first time. he sounds pretty nice. i hope he digs it here. then, theres ray, from school. i hope he comes. he seems really cool and funny, and i really wanna be friends with him, but sometimes (okay, a lot of times) i just get really shy. i wanna convert him sooo bad! i can just see it in him....he seems so sad, and ive got a spot in my heart for sad boys...seriously..i just wanna hug em and help em out soooooooo bad.
call me a girl.
or shoot me in my face.
either/or....
that...and E(XX) is going to be there. i havent seen her in forever, let alone talked to her. its been about two months, id say? i dont know...P(XY) gave me the strength to not talk to her. now that hes gone, this is the test. ill be polite, say hi...but thats about it.

phew! im just kinda jittery about it. and i havent been to a show in ages...and im afraid my dancing ability has gone down a bit...thats like, my FAME right there! (fame? yeah, im cocky..hah)

now it is 214am. he called. just got off the phone.hes home and fine. nice to hear his voice, like always. its soothing. he has the soothing male voice that i love-raspy, deep, and has a nice vocabulary that includes pet names that make me swoon. "baby, hon, doll, darlin"
ouch...
feels so good.

so im like garaunteed to see him about 2x next year. summer school. and his dads bowling thing is going to be in phoenix...well..i guess well see how my life is then, now wont we?
my life is notorious for making twists and turns. but, so is everyone elses.
i wouldnt want it any other way.

-putting in curlers too tight before you sleep is a garaunteed way to have a sore scalp in the morning.
-waiting on a tiny man to go thrifting takes longer than waiting for a high matinence girl to get ready.
-listening to a good tape over and over makes me feel cultured.
-reminded once again that i shouldve saved that $60 and put it towards a better camera.
-my life would be so much easier with a job. and more interesting.
-missing your girlfriends is a bad thing..:(
-missing a guyfriend is a bad thing too.
-mary janes make a funny noise when you walk and arent wearing socks with them. *schllook*
-ill survive. thinking about all these days ill eventually get to living can be a tad overwhelming.
-everything takes forever.

later on today, after i get home, ill post a picture of myself for the world to see. i change so much, it will probably be outdated soon...enjoy while you can.
i hope i find something nice at the thriftstore....
i want something good to happen to me.
-jo